A dark day

It's days like this where I feel most empty. I know that if I didn't get up and go to class or do anything else I'm meant to, no one would know but me. Most days are like this in fact. Its hard to force myself out of bed when I can't think of a reason I should get up. My only reason is that I can't miss school. Since I have no friends there to help me catch up. I'm already behind so I can't fall anymore though. It hurts though, that no one would notice me missing. It hurts that no one sees the pain I'm in. And I feel pathetic, because its not like I have any real problems like some people. My only problem is how I feel inside. I wish I could he normal, I wish I had friends who saw my turmoil and wanted to help. But I don't. If they do see it, they choose to ignore it. I can't say I blame them. I'm a mess and I need to help myself. But how?